New Year, New Efforts?

It’s that time of year when everyone begins to start stating their resolutions for the new year. I have never been the type of person to keep to resolutions, so I view them as mini goals, check-in points, tiny hurdles. This way there is not a definite end to the goal and I don’t find myself getting frustrated trying to complete things by a certain time because let’s face it, I’m a procrastinator.

This year, I have made a couple new goals. The first one is to prioritize my mental health and all around well-being. This is a lofty goal, but it is something that I for sure need to be doing since it is my last semester in a familiar place with so many familiar faces that I am 100% comfortable with. This goal is important because I have been going in and out of different spirals for what feels like years and now that I am in a good place with therapy, I need to be in a good place outside of those four walls. This is going to be a challenging goal because A) when am I going to have the time to check-in with myself and see what is really going on in my head, and B) I no longer have my roommates to rely on when things start to get a little crazy. They’re all off doing some amazing things for themselves.

Along those lines, I want to check-in with the people who mean the most to me more than what I do now. Life is hard, and I want to make sure that the people I care about know that I care about them and that I value our friendship. I think this is because I am going to get all sappy and sentimental this semester, since I will be experiencing so many lasts. This goes for friends that I see and do not. Be prepared.

I also set out to journal more. This was originally one of the ways that I was going to take care of my mental health, but then I realized… I SUCK at journaling. After talking with Goose about it, I will be writing one sentence a day (minimum) to describe what happened. This way I am still checking-in with myself, but there is WAY less pressure.

I am also going to be focusing as hard as possible on my classes. I know that this is something that I should have done the whole time that I was at GB, but there were a plethora of things that got in the way of that. I am determined to graduate and end on a high note. This, again, is a lofty goal because procrastination… Thank God Jill got me a planner for my birthday!

I want to take more pictures. I am a super sentimental person, so I live for pictures and capturing the moments that have an impact on me shared with the people around me. I have an embarrassing amount of pictures currently on my phone, though… Maybe I should go through those ones first. This will also play into me wanting to make my socials what I want them to be again, instead of a curated collection of things that I think will do well. I want to be more authentic.

Little acts of bravery each day is going to be my motto. I am going to do one thing a day (maybe a week, realistically) that is something I wouldn’t normally do. I am going to go to the gym more (gym bros are horrifying when you’re a plus-size human). I am going to try new recipes. I am going to write more for this website about things that are happening. I am going to get out of my comfort zone and make an effort to be around people that better my mindset and make me feel like I can be 100% myself. Little acts of bravery each day is equal to one big act of bravery in the long run, right?

I have never been the type of person who kept to my resolutions, so I started calling them goals. This way I can do them at my own pace, in my own time, and make sure that I am doing them because I want to… not that I am obligated to do them.